Monday, May 26, 2014

Checking in...

I've been on a hiatus from the blogging world for the past couple of weeks. Life has been very busy and I will have lots to report when I get my act together- hopefully soon. The gist is, I had a grueling 2WW with too many pregnancy symptoms to bear and now terrible PMS related mood swings and anxiety. We have positive news on the adoption front. We are finally gaining some momentum in the process.

Right now my heart is hurting so much. I'm finding comfort in my journal and my prayer from about this same time last year:

Lord, help me to love you as love me. In the midst of such great uncertainty, help me to keep my eyes fixed on you- never denying the reality of the world around me but choosing to hope despite the reality of evil. Lead me to the truth. Hold me always- especially when I have lost sight of your face. Amen.

I've been holding you all close to my heart and praying for you constantly. <3

Thursday, May 8, 2014

Saved by the same stranger twice

In high school I read a book called Standing with Courage by Mary-Louise Kury. I'll never forget the book as it had one of the biggest impacts on my conviction that I needed to resist the norm among my friends and my school and save sex for marriage.

A year or so into our infertility journey a friend sent me an article about a woman who had stayed true to church teaching about IVF and had been able to conceive after many years of infertility.

I was shocked when I realized this woman was the author of the book that had played such a big role in my earlier life.

It really struck me as remarkable that God could use this same woman twice- at terribly significant junctures- to give me hope and point me in the right direction.

I may not know what exactly this sign means for my future but for now I know it means I'm not alone. God is always speaking to us if we know how to listen!