Monday, May 26, 2014

Checking in...

I've been on a hiatus from the blogging world for the past couple of weeks. Life has been very busy and I will have lots to report when I get my act together- hopefully soon. The gist is, I had a grueling 2WW with too many pregnancy symptoms to bear and now terrible PMS related mood swings and anxiety. We have positive news on the adoption front. We are finally gaining some momentum in the process.

Right now my heart is hurting so much. I'm finding comfort in my journal and my prayer from about this same time last year:

Lord, help me to love you as love me. In the midst of such great uncertainty, help me to keep my eyes fixed on you- never denying the reality of the world around me but choosing to hope despite the reality of evil. Lead me to the truth. Hold me always- especially when I have lost sight of your face. Amen.

I've been holding you all close to my heart and praying for you constantly. <3

11 comments:

  1. Thanks for the check-in. I am sorry about the tough 2WW and now a dose of PMS. My heart hurts for you (and with you) in this struggle. My prayer lately is along the lines of - "Lord, I know you have a plan for my life that is good. I BEG you to humble me with how you will redeem this pain and suffering. Answer my prayers in such a mind-blowing way that I can hardly struggle to have faith again!" I pray that for you. For all of us bearing this cross that feels way too heavy. You're prayer is beautiful and a great one to keep reflecting on and coming back to. Thanks for sharing! Praying for and with you, dear!

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    1. Thank you so much for sharing Amanda! That is beautiful! It's also a good reminder because God has answered my past prayers in pretty mind blowing ways so I know I have no reason to doubt!

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  2. So sorry that you've had such a tough couple of weeks, but very excited about your positive adoption news! Can't wait for updates!!! Your prayer is lovely, and a great reminder for all of us. Lots of prayers and hugs for you this week.

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  3. So sorry that it's been a rough 2 week wait. I am so glad to hear that things are picking up on the adoption front.

    Prayers and hugs! (I'd offer chocolate and wine, too, but a) I don't know if you are avoiding either and b) it's kind of hard to pass them through the internet.)

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  4. that is an amazing prayer! it hurts so much, my heart goes out to you with all of the anxiety, and emotional ups and downs. praying for strength to get through.

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  5. Sorry for the rough 2WW. Those are just no fun. :( It's gotta be some time off of purgatory, right? I'm glad you have some good news on the adoption front! Thanks for sharing that prayer. Choosing to hope can be really hard some days... I am praying for you!

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  6. Praying for you! It is just so hard sometimes :(

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  7. I'm sorry it's been a tough time for you (understatement, I know). It is so hard to still have hope when so many barriers are shoved in your face. The prayer you wrote here is a wonderful one, and I will echo it in my prayers for you.

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  8. I'm so sorry about the grueling 2WW. The way it can play with our hopes and dreams for the future is just cruel sometimes. Hugs! And thanks for sharing that beautiful prayer.

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  9. Late to comment, but I've been reading for a while in the shadows as you know. I'm sorry you had such a difficult time with another 2WW. I'm glad you have had wonderful and hopeful news on the adoption front. Praying for peace for you and your DH. <3

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