Monday, February 3, 2014

One of those days

I was supposed to take my trigger shot by 3pm today, which meant bringing everything with me to work. 3pm roles around and I go through the usual prep routine and then I can't get the stupid needle through my skin! I've done this at least 10 times before. Why in the world isn't it working?!? I kept trying and was bleeding from like 5 different spots before I called the nurses at PPVI- well, I bypassed their line and asked the office manager to let me talk to one of them ASAP. The nurse walked me through the procedure and told me to be more forceful, etc- all to no avail. I told her I'd done these injections plenty of times and never had  trouble so it must be the needle.

By this time it was 3:45 and I was well passed the deadline for the shot. I had no other needles with me at work so I left early to go home and use a different needle. But as it turns out, K.ubats had not included any needles for the HCG in this months package. I was totally SOL. I eventually got the right needles from W.algreens after K.ubats called them for me, but I ended up doing the shot nearly 2 hours late. The new needle went through with no issue, so beware there are dud needles!!!! I would not have guessed that was possible but I'm relieved to know I'm not losing my touch.

On top of that, while I was walking the 4 blocks from my office to my car, I slid down a 2 foot pile of snow and abruptly landed on my tush and bruised my tail-bone. At least 3 people saw me and only one stopped to see if I was okay, but didn't help me up or anything. I was carrying the prepared HCG injection in a container with ice and everything went everywhere! It was a miracle the injection didn't spill or break.

I also learned from PPVI today that my thyroid numbers are still crappy. My T3 is 67 and the healthy range is 70-150 (I think) and my T3 -Reverses T3 ratio is 2.7 and they want it to be greater than 10. When I first started t3 supplements 2 years ago, I think my ratio was 3, so not only has mine not improved by it's a little worse. They wanted me to increase my T3 dose but last time I tried that I had extreme anxiety (racing heart and pulse) so I am absolutely not jumping to the dose they recommended because that feeling is awful.

My husband was a super-hero and made me a gin and tonic as soon as I got home and went to the pharmacy for me to pick up the new needles. I took a hot bath to calm my nerves and soothe my bruised tail-bone. I was pleasantly surprised to get a call from the K.ubats pharmacist apologizing for not sending the needles and letting me know they were refunding the full cost of the HCG! I was not expecting that.

All these little things seem so embarrassingly trivial. I could be ashamed to admit I let all this get to me. Sometimes though, it's the little things about IF that can really kick you in the gut. And then I think of St. Therese and how all these little things can be transformed into beautiful roses before the thrown of our Lord if we bear them with love and patience. I hope I can get better at that. Today just reminded me how far I have to go on the path to sainthood. Sometimes I feel like IF has made me more selfish. Oh how I have a lot to learn.

11 comments:

  1. Oh no! I'm sorry this was such a crappy day :( injections suck even more so with dull needles. I'm praying that tomorrow is a better day for you!

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    1. Thank you. And thank your DH again for introducing me to G&Ts- my lifeline the past month:-)

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  2. Thank God for gin and tonics! That sounds like such a frustrating experience - and I am in AWE of you and your bravery in doing multiple injections!!

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  3. Sorry you ha such a bad day. I came across your blog from another blog I read. I am a patient of PPVI and when I asked about doing a trigger the nurse said Dr. H does not think they work and timing has to be perfect. I was surprised to read PPVI prescribed triggers for you. Which dr. do you see? Did they say why they want you to trigger?

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    1. Interesting! I didn't know Dr. H wasn't a fan. Dr P is my doctor and she has me doing the trigger because my follicles do not rupture on their own- and thus far they don't rupture with the trigger either. Do you ovulate on your own?

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    2. I do ovulate on my own. I asked about the trigger because I had two follicles and I know naturally the body would most likely only release one. Maybe he didn't agree in this circumstance.

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    3. I hope you'll keep me posted if you learn anything else. It is nice to compare notes on what we here from the docs.

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  4. Sometimes the little things trip us up because the big things are already weighing us down so much already. The most important part is to get back up again. I hope the rest of your week has been going better!

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  5. "...it's the little things about IF that can really kick you in the gut." So true!! Sorry you had a bad day. :( Continuing to pray for you!! Hoping things only get better from here!

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  6. I'm so glad that Kubat's gave you a refund! I am lousy at complaining/asking for stuff like that, and I was really disappointed by the response I got when I called them about my leaky vial.

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    1. Yes, and what's most impressive is that I didn't have to complain! I'm sure it has everything to do with the particular person helping you. Though, I think my complaining, no I mean assertiveness skills :-), are improving. I'm shocked they weren't more responsive about your troublesome ordeal. What did they end up saying?

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